So, today’s the big day! My 54th birthday. Woop Woop! I don’t know what my husband and daughter have in store, but I’ve been told it’s going to be a lot of fun… and today, I got to thinking.
What if I could go back in time and tell my teenage self a few things? What would I say? Would my teenage self even listen?
I was not a rebellious teenager and if you knew my dad, you’d know why. In all honesty? I don’t think I ever had a rebellious time in my life… at least not the typical rebellion you normally think of. Don’t misunderstand, I wasn’t a quiet or totally compliant type either, but anyway… I digress.
Here I sit on the eve of my 54th birthday. I don’t ‘feel’ whatever 54 is supposed to feel like. And I think age is just a number, it’s attitude and how you take care of yourself that determines your real age. And besides, 50 is the new 30, so it’s all good!
For me, turning 40 wasn’t a big deal. I had my daughter when I was 40. Even turning 50 wasn’t that much of an ‘OMG!’ moment. But, now… just one year shy of being at the midpoint between 50 and 60 just seems surreal in a lot of ways. As I said in my very first post, ‘Seriously, I was just 35 yesterday!’
This has been brewing with me for a long time. And it may or may not resonate with you and that’s o.k. Or you may be feeling the same way, too, (which I hope is the case!) so that I’m not alone in this.
Is it just me or does the clothing for women in our age group 40 – 50+ still look like they were made for our mothers and grandmothers? What it is about being 50+ that we’re now called ‘mature’ and our clothes are now called ‘mature fashion.’
Like many people, this day is a part of me forever. On 9/11/01, my daughter was just 9 months old, my sons were in high school and I was working part-time at an investment firm in Northern KY. Most of the brokerage firms we worked with were in New York City… some in the Trade Center, such as Dean Witter, Merrill Lynch and Cantor Fitzgerald.
I remember my husband called me and said, “I think a plane just flew into one of the twin towers.”